i seriously don't know how long this is going to last. I'm afraid. What if you don't care whether or not I message you & therefore you didn't message me either. I don't know how long i can wait, it's kind of driving me crazy. I'm trying to do my homework but i can't even focus on it because i'm starring at my buddy list. how fucking pathetic am i and i'm pretty sure you're not doing that. You're okay with it aren't you? It's part of the whole space thing that you want, it's part of living your life isn't it. i'm a silly girl, a really silly girl. I can't even believe in myself sometimes. But i always tell myself that things will be okay, no matter what. The end hasn't come unless things are okay. I just need to stay strong. I thought this break would be a good one, but i honestly rather be in school right now. At least that way, i'd be loaded with work rather than staying home, thinkin all day.