Nightmare ..

Last night, I couldn't exactly fall asleep. I was talking to him and anna. I looked out the window, up into the sky and just burst alot of my feelings out. It made me cry, those tears burned. From that moment on , i knew something bad was going to happen. Then he took really long to answer and i guess he was on cs, what could i do? I thought bout the times when he'd be laying down texting me and no matter what I do, I'd tried to respond quickly as possible in order for him to not fall asleep. But him , that's not the case at all. The moment i said " i don't know " i thought really carefully to saying that and I knew if i did , we'd start a fight. But i did it because that's what i want to say in my heart and if i didn't , i'd regret it afterwards. So yeah, another fight. Ironic because the last time I blogged which was a few days ago, I said we haven't faught since .. but now here comes the fight.
I'm really tired .. i really am. I know we're suppose to look ahead in life but why do i keep looking back? I keep looking back on us and how dearly i miss us. I don't know. It was a really bad night. I thought i was almost gonna cry myself to sleep but thankfully I don't think i did. After we stopped talking, i went to sleep and hell was it a bad night. It was a nightmare for the whole night. I almost cried like i did in the dream too, all night as long as i had my eyes closed all i saw was you with another girl. That was all i saw. Even when I woke up and just closed my eyes I still saw you guys. When's the nightmare going to be over ..