how weak i am.

I hate how weak i am. I hate how weak you make me. I hate how I can't be a little stronger and act like everything's fine while talking to others. People would ask me if I'm okay, you sound so down. Why can't I just not think about it.. why. Who knows what you're doing. I don't know how it works for you but it's definitely different compared to how it works for me. When trouble comes to us, I can't concentrate, I can't think right, I sound different, whatever it is. But I really don't know about you.. does it bother you? Yeah it probably does, but you put it aside and do your thing. Play games with no distractions. How do you do that? I want to learn.
Tomorrow will definitely be a horrible day. I don't know how it'll work, what will happen. But it definitely won't be my day. I guess I'd still come by during the end of 2nd, but what help would that make. We'll just walk in the hallway, in silence..hands to ourselves. Say bye, however way it is, i got no idea. And then maybe i'd see him after school if he chooses to stay. I really don't know. I guess i'll just find out tmrw.