sigh ..

I miss us so dearly. I try so hard, but it seems that its just you, handball and games. Monday-Friday is handball, Saturday & Sunday is games & handball. Seriously, where do i belong. The time added up of how much time we "spend" together is an hour max. or even less. How sad.
I fear ... what if the love dies? whether from me or from you. I try to be strong and I am strong. But i'm still just a girl , everytime I think of it , i tear. And i don't know how you feel about this at all, but I think you're fine with it. Maybe, maybe not. Who knows. I feel like I don have a boyfriend even though i have one. It's not exactly your fault but along with the time you take to practice, you haven't given time to just talk to me either. I don't remember the last time we had a decent long and nice conversation. Maybe i forgot, but i honestly don't remember.