Anxiety .

Today's day 2 and I didn't see you once..not even the back of your head. I thought I actually might have saw you today since you have night school but i guess not. I was nervous, I didn't want to see you..yet I did. Anna kept waiting for you to come but you never did. Every time a bus came by, my heart was pounding. But you never showed..maybe you were trying to avoid me..maybe you didn't want to see me therefore you either came later or earlier. Anna said we have to get back, but honestly I think I've lost hope. The past two days, all I've done was torture myself. I wish my life could just end..i wish I can just tell you i love you once more and leave. You just texted me and told me that you miss me. I don't know how to reply.. I honestly don't know what you want. You tortured me for two days.. within these two days, I've been hurt. When I read the text, I don't even know how I feel to it. I just started to cry. This was harder than I thought it would be..