I'm honestly frightened,

it was suppose to be a good day like it's always supposed to be but somehow each and every time it never ends the way it used to. Yeah, I don't want to have any sexual relations for a while, but does that mean it'll stop us from enjoying a day together, finally..after so long? Cause that's honestly how it's starting to make me feel. How come it never seems okay for me not to want it. I admit, yes at some point I do and I tease, but I honestly want to learn to control myself and not do anything for a while. But it's as if every time we're together, all you want is intimacy. Can't you respect me and not do it for once? It's not my fault that I've lost some sexual desire, and you can't get mad at me for saying no. It just scares me and makes me think about things. Maybe this is why sometimes..now a days I'd rather you go handball because it'll save us from fights.. but then again, it's not dealing with our problem but only doing other things to distract our problem.