So like today was a typical day..kinda boring tho. First off, brian & mom went to the farm which ofcourse i didn't go to, so jimmy, lily, and stephanie came over. jimmy came over first at like 12ish and we did the usuall alone time stuff. :x teheeee, then steph & lily came over & yeahh. we didn't do much, it was pretty damn boring. steph & lily did their nails as me & jimmy were just on the bed, then he saw my journal & those papers i wrote during work. :x which he really shouldn't have, it said something about how i expect more from him, wish he'd buy me things and stuff. at first i just took it from him then he made me show him...and ofcourse i did. then we just talked about it, and on thursday the 6th, we went to EC but then we didn't get anything. he planned to go again.. on the 14th, six months. so today we kinda got mad and stuff and we didn't talk for a while. then he dragged me to the living room and we talked and stuff. after he saw the other papers, one was actually a good one. then he saw stephanie reading one he didn't know was there, he ended up reading it too. :x it was about him forgetting our six months, who likes who more, that we didn't get anything at EC, and what if school starts and we meet new people. :x
We talked about that too, and i don't know , i really shouldn't worry should i? as he told me he wouldn't it was really sweet. :x he was like well i wouln't leave you just like that, for a girl i met for a day and a girl i been with for six months. & also that he can be sure he wouldn't lose feelings for me or get tired of me because he can just leave me and when he gets home, he'd miss me already. aiyahh, he's sucha sweeetie soemtimes. [: I think today was the first time we had a "talk" in person, it felt awkward, i get scared to look at him.. :x i shouldn't be scared tho he's my own boyfriend.. he's really someone .. i do love him for everything he is, everything he's done. even though there's been a time in between where he's done alot of things that were just so wrong and hurt me i think he made up for it. :x back then, i thought i'd never take someone back for cheating.. but now look? i took him back and i don't regret it at all. he's impacted my life and i'm hoping i've impacted his too. stay strong, baby. i love youu ..