life is so dull.

Well my 5 days of relaxation is over. I thought it would have been more fun but i guess i expected too much. It was nice there though, a very nice place for couples therefore i saw many of them there. Now that I'm back in NewYork, it's time to be stressed. OD stressed. Today was my first day back to school, global and chem test, failed.. terribly. Without a doubt, i definitely failed. I didn't have much idea on what was going on, I just wanted it to be over. Trig class, i forgot everything .. and i mean EVERYTHING. How pathetic , and when i take that test tomorrow, it'll be test number 3 of the week that i will fail. Then Spanish, hopefully i'll do decent on that because Spanish was never really a hard subject. But after tomorrow, I'm done with school. But then again, in a week or so it'll be a new cycle of stress.
My life seems so boring. I go home after school everyday, and I don't even have people to stay with anymore. I get out of school, get on the first bus I see immediately with jimmy. And once he leaves, i'm on my own. I guess it'll just be the beginning of learning how to be an independent person. And I think I've been doing a good job. Today, I was outside of school without jimmy there yet. It was awkward.. i really didn't know where to go because I didn't fit in with anyone there. But it's okay, because in life, i shouldn't be dependent on anyone yet I still am. But I've grown out of it and it's all good. But sometimes i just wish I'd have someone because stephanie's not always there and what if it's about him, who would i go to. Honestly i really don't know. Sometimes i just miss my past when life was so simple yet I'd call it complicated then. But now when i compare them , my past was nothing compared to now. I've gotten close to kl lately, and i guess we've been having pretty deep conversations with each other. It's nice to know i have someone around.