emotional breakdown.

I don't know why I made such a small thing a big one, and I definitely don't know why he made it an even bigger one. I just didn't like the feeling that you just slid over and sat with her, yeah I know her. Yeah i know there's nothing between you guys but I just don't like that feeling at all.. then you come back over and I act mad. I was mad, I am mad, I am upset of what you did and I just wanted to joke around for a little bit. Unfortunately, you just never tend to take me fucking seriously, because your way of convincing me not to be mad is by biting me. -.- what the fuck is that shit, jimmy zhou. Then I giggle for a second and go back to a straight face. You saw it, then i started to smile and then you just say "No you think it's funny" and fucking back away. Really? What the fuck did I do to get you so mad? You act like you don't pretend to be mad at me. Where is the patience you have for me? Where the fuck is the consideration? Where? You fucking tell me. I don't even know why the fuck I began to cry. I even asked you where you want to go and maybe try to forget about it. But no, you fucking tell me you're going home. Okay, because that will solve the god damn problem. I really hate you sometimes, I hate how you don't try. I really do, sometimes I just want you to tell me sweet stuff and kiss me and hug me but you don't ever fucking do that. You never take me seriously when I am mad. Why the fuck am I crying? Why? Why? fucking shit man, i hate you. You brought me to embarrassment, I never ever cried in the train station but the times i have, it's all because of you. I hate how you impact me, I hate how I'm so dependent on you. I hate how Im crying over you right now, I hate how you always tell me to leave you alone when I want you to talk to me, I hate how you hurt my feelings like this. I hate how I have so much patience and consideration for you but you don't have any towards me.