I don't get it. you confuse me. i don't know, you piss me off just a bit. :x i don't know why but now a days , i get pissed easily. but it's nothing big big its just pissed for a while and then i let it go. it's kinda stupid at times and i don't know. i feel so selfish because i seem to want more from you. it's like i want more attention. sometimes i feel i had more attention back then but am i just thinking wrong or am i right? i don't know where i stand. & sometimes it makes me feel that i care too much that i should back off a bit and things would be more chilled. how do you feel for me? how much do you like me? i wonder if i like you more or you like me more or is it really an equal amount. sometimes, i feel that you do love me, i feel so lucky and happy. yet sometimes i dont even know, you confuse my mind quite often. sometimes i just think the love is equal and sometimes i think i love you more. but i really don't know, i guess one will only know how they feel for someone and not how someone feels for you. sometimes one may not even know how they feel for someone until a long period of time.
i dislike the fact that when you're pissed, it ends up effecting us as well when it didnt in the first place. you're pissed, i get it.. i probably am no help trying to make you feel better. it's hard for me as well you know. & then you tell me you don't feel like talking .. dam that's kinda cold. makes me think, kills my mood. kills everything. everything you do effects me. i sound dramatic don't i? lol.. yeah i think that quite often but that's just who i am and how i feel. i hope you'd understand.. you should know by now what kind of person i am. or maybe not, i can't say you do because sometimes i don't even know who i am. i lose myself once in a while.